End the arguing in front of children

Yesterday night me and my boyfriend got into a argument, the argument started in front of my two girls. I fussed at him about not answering my phone calls, after I called him twice yesterday. I got really upset with him and cursed him out, because of that and other things that I held on to that’ll instantly lead up to an issue. He kept reciting his appearance of being in front of my home, but I didn’t care about that. The only thing that had me upset was not him answering my phone call, I was so heated. The moment he was invited in that very moment I told him to get out my face. I then stood up from my couch handed him our daughter, then I walked to my room. I sat on my bed so stressed out and upset over the fact he ignored me. I don’t care if you are up the street at the convenient store, answer the phone! While I was in my room sitting on my bed, my oldest daughter walks in. I apologized to her about my behavior but why I did that, I seen the look on her face while I was fussing at my boyfriend. She just stared at me with a look that can’t be explained through emotions. But I felt something from her when I fussed at him. And not just with her, my ten month old daughter as well. She cries when I fuss at her dad, every time she hears my tone of voice become ruff she begins to cry. I could be fussing for five minutes, she’ll cry the whole five minutes also. I felt sorry for the expressions I received last night all because of someone else’s actions. I’m about to be a mom to three children soon and fussing at another adult, isn’t going to help my children’s sanity nor their happiness. My children consume everything that I do and say, so consuming fussing at someone they’re not married to, is misleading also teaching them how to not have respect for themselves or to just put up with anything that will tear them apart. Every child’s construction starts from home, nagging, name calling, unhappiness, stress, depression, smoking, drinking, cursing, partying, living filthy, lack of education comes from an intoxicated person. What can an intoxicated bring forth when raising a family? The way that person constructs his/her self. That person was once a child that has been intoxicated in his/her childhood, that once little child seen and head so much filth how can that child know to do better, when that’s all that child has been around all his/her life. That child has become adapted to that type of low life lifestyle, now that child has grown he/she now thinks it’s okay to be adapted by other toxicity, because he/she seen mommy do the same thing all his/her life. It’s like a generational curse that needs to be broken before it becomes too late. My oldest daughter is nine, so the time would be now to stop intoxicating her future. Children are indeed the future, every child that walks the earth are very smart and will accept whatever is given out to them, especially from mommy and daddy. Children may take heed to learning at school but they also take heed much more from the ones that’s closer to them daily. Children are like sponges have them soak up water instead of eating dirt, we as parents or guardians are perimeter our children are the core. Nourishment will never get lost if I(we) raise our children and put them on paths the way they should go.