It seems that I’ve been going through the upmost heart trauma, I’m always silent and take so much from people. I feel the pain of that every single day and seemingly I can’t bare it, but I have been all this time. Picking on someone that let’s me get away with my hurtful mentality, isn’t going to solve anything. Just think how would you like to be mistreated and talked to any kind of way in your face?

I thought people should be treated equally right? But no that’s not how I’ve been getting treated. Maybe if I began to treated others such as I’ve been treated, maybe my heart wouldn’t go through so much pain and suffering. I’m forever thinking about painful acts that has be done unto me why, it’s because I let the pain hurt me on purpose for some unknown reason.

I’m sad now thinking about recent events that have hindered my peace. I’m just taking all this in I’m so bothered when I should be unbothered. My heart have been on silent mode for quite some time I’m pass due of venting. I want to marinate in my own sin of justice, since it have been wronged to speak my mind according to my bullies.

I want to let my heart speak for herself what can she offer upon my soul salvation, what vibes can she deliver to mind, what feeling can my flesh feel. I want to fall back in love again.