You Owe Me An Apology!!!

About seven minutes ago a movie was on television, the movie had various scenes in it. The movie was about these children that stayed in a orphanage together, and the man that we’re in charge of caring for the children wasn’t treating them fairly. One of the children name rose, got into trouble he gave her the harshest punishment there was. She couldn’t play outside with the other children nor could she have an orange to eat, rose had to do chores. She basically could not have any contact with the other children, that stayed in the same orphanage as she. Her punishment was pretty harsh especially for her being a child, it seemed rough for her to bare. But as the movie continues although the ending turned out wonderful, the caregiver still did not apologize to those children and rose, for being so cold hearted. I thought before he was getting ready to leave the orphanage to go see his daughter, that he would make mends with rose but he never did. Even though he gentle toward everyone in the house, he just never apologized. I paid attention to those parts in the movie because the ending was a blessing, I just for sure thought that he was going to apologize. There has been times that someone had treated me horridly and never apologized about they’re actions toward me. It has been that way my whole life, I’m still waiting on an apology from the woman that I call mom that was suppose to make sure that I was loved and never left out. Constantly reminded that I came from foster care, without a father figure in my life. I was reminded that I was a bastard, stupid, dumb, retarded, and crazy (although I’m not far from it) etc. I’m still waiting on my apology for being mentally and emotionally abused for the whole fourteen or fifteen years I was under her care. Now I’ve grown up and have gotten into other similar situations with other people. Feeling left out not important and being mistreated. you will be surprised at how people act when Love isn’t involved. Although I’ve been through hell and back mentally and emotionally, I’ve learned this very powerful thing…I will never get my apology, I will be waiting for the rest of my life. Ive been cheated on lied to, stole from, betrayed, mean toward, neglected I will never get my apology. I have to face the fact that I will never get justice for the uncalled mistreatment that I’ve received through out life. The person can be sincere and being nice to you for a moment, but just know if that person doesn’t have a heart of gold, that person definitely doesn’t have the sensibility to apologize. Us good people aren’t the first nor the last to have been rubbed wrong, all we can do is carry on with life and thank God for the trails that has became tough lessons. Yes it hurt, but weeping endure for a night joy comes in the morning. God knows and sees EVERYTHING…do not a murderer gets away with murder?…